I wasn’t really that bothered after receiving a text last night but now I am deeply bothered and distracted after a short chat with one of my leader. There is something bothering me hugely.

Sometimes it keeps me pondering. Suppose you have two groups of people who are of different background, work attitude, and perceptions. Both Group A and Group B are, according to the organisation structure, put under the centralised leadership of Leader AB. Group A has a team of leaders which I will just address them as a singular Leader A, this applies to Group B also.

I am in many ways considered a somewhat new member of Group B, specifically in not knowing the thorough setting history and present environment of this group. My attachment to this group is at the moment sort of surficial and the bonding is yet to root deeply.

Hard have I tried to recall why I was even elected to lead Group B. Perhaps it was a setup, or perhaps it was God’s will, or perhaps it was mere coincidence. Whatever the reason was, I have to bear this responsibility with full integrity and faith.

Long have I forgotten the importance of reading between the lines and using the correct terms/words in a two-way communication. Somehow something struck me hard last night reminding me that I should not be so surficial but to think deep and to ponder the challenges ahead. I mumbled a lot those days, but the day has come for me to delegate and ponder as a member of Group B.

When in doubt, mumble; when in trouble, delegate; when in charge, ponder. ~ James H. Boren

In pursuing the common interests of Group A and Group B, certains harships and indifferences have to be addressed at the leadership-level. I strongly believe that since this is a non-profit organisation and that serving is the essence to keep this organisation alive, one should really heeds Mother Teresa’s advice.

I don’t claim anything of the work. It is his work. I am like a little pencil in his hand. That is all. He does the thinking. He does the writing. The pencil has nothing to do with it. ~ Mother Teresa

We have to remind ourselves we are the little pencils and not the Creator. Being a new leader, I shall apply one lesson which I have learned from my involvement with my previous organisation - respect your stakeholders (in this case, those senior members who once were leaders). Having said that, these people are of great influential and should not be neglected in my decision making.