It is not important after all

As I am coming towards the middle part of my Masters study, I do become seemingly anxious about major life decisions.

Questions like “What am I doing after this?” and “How can I reconcile the demands of my job with obligations to my parents, siblings, friends and community groups?” is popping up every now and then. As Christians, we seek assurance and guidance in important matters through our faith.

It is now the moment to take a clear decision as regards what is most going to help me discern my vocation prudently and well. Between the call to lead a married life or the call to enter the consecrated life, a decision has to surface and either way there will be sacrifices.

I want to spend this year thinking real deep about the choices of life I am about to make. I open my heart to the two calls. I will seek out to married couples and priests to discern more about my own vocation.

As you would have noticed, my previous posts have been revolving around the sentiments of faith and some personal feelings. Perhaps I should not pen down my feelings openly to be read by others. Perhaps I should write things that will keep you attracted but the thing is “it is not important after all”.

PageRank, traffic, comments, popularity, earnings from ads and whatever a blogger wants seem unimportant now. All I want is to share with you my feelings and thoughts, it is in doing so that I hope you feel what I feel as you walk with me. My pleasure.

I spent my weekend in Malacca. I drove all the way up to Malacca with Paul, Daniel and Michael. Although with the recent increment in petrol price it is still worth a trip. We were greeted with warm welcome upon our arrival. Often we thought that priests are the serious type of people but they are not. They are serious when they celebrate Mass and other rites but at other times they are just like us - loving people.

I went to experience the seminarian life at the Congregatio Discipulorum Domini (CDD) Formation House. A total of 28 young men, 5 priests and one religious brother were there. We had a great time singing hymns of praise, attending Mass, eating together, sharing thoughts and playing volleyball during these three days, just like brothers will do. Most of the time we were attending talks and praying.

This vocation camp was very well spent. Most of the words pierce into my heart and they gave me the reason to find a life of purpose and live everyday to the fullest. Just as people are complaining about petrol getting more expensive, living expenses is on the rise and the governance of our country, we fail to see that the love and morality of our society is on the drop. Everything is UP! But seriously something is diminishing, the act of love.

I never had the chance to bid farewell to my friend, Anna who went to further her education in MMU, Malacca. These are the only few presents she left us before she headed to another state. All the best in completing your studies and may you find wisdom and knowledge a beautiful thing.

If you have been wondering about my disappearance (leaving this blog secretly without explanation) I would like to say that I had been busy with experimental testing for these two weeks. Many thanks to Pei Siang and UncleSeng for patiently helping me with my experimental works. Without the two of you, I would not have finished testing my huge-size specimens. I love you guys!

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