This is a crazy week, extremely crazy I tell you. You don’t know what it’s like to be like me. What I am going through for these few weeks is just awesomely mind bugging, physical and energy consuming. Birthday parties, dinners, gatherings, council meetings, paper writing and a few which I am too lazy to mention, when added up really drives me crazy.
You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay (sometimes though not always), everybody always gave me what I wanted. But they don’t know what it’s like to be like me.
I need to be heard, to feel love, to be cared, to be hugged, I need what a human need - genuine affection! I need a jungle to breathe, lots of oxygen for me to breathe! Sometimes I really wish I could disappear to somewhere else, far far away from this place. I am just a human, not a superhuman.
I really miss movie at TGV, dinner with great companions, gym at Kompleks Sukan, singing at RedBox, getting partially-naked at Desaru (the nearest beach), lock myself up in the room screaming to Simple Plan or Linkin Park, shopping at City Square and so much more I have sacrificed for the sake of serving Him.
Sometimes I wonder why I have to give up so much to follow Him. Is this a kind of test? Sometimes I wonder. But whenever I recalled what Matthew wrote in the gospel, I feel peace. Jesus said, “Come to me, all you who labour and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for your selves. For my yoke is easy, and my burden light.”
“Come to me, all you who labuor and are burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28
Come to think about it, I know what I am missing, I missed prayer and communion with God! It has been a while since I knelt down in my room to talk to God. Forgive me Lord. I was too hooked up with all these distracting stuffs happening in my life.
Anyway, I want to give thanks to God for all these while after Eddie left us. Our BEC Taman Universiti has solved some unsorted issues, our Tian Yue Choir is celebrating her 1st anniversary tonight, our St Paul’s Youth has just organized their camp last month and our Sunday School teachers are busy preparing for a camp due in November. What more is that I am pushing for more bonding among the Chinese Apostolate committee.
Ah!! I feel good now that I channeled my kept feelings. I’d like to share with you this song, Welcome to my life - Simple Plan. I just love Simple Plan.
Dear friends, if you are reading this, the next time you see me don’t feel shy to just give me a hug. One need no reason to hug another person. I will appreciate it, really. It’s never wrong for a guy to ask to be hugged, we are all human despite the difference in gender.
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Hah, give you a big HUG, Daniel.
The power of GOD within you is greater than the pressures around you. Keep on going, GOD is always with you.
I don’t give hug. I give care! =)
anitamukah » Thanks so much for the virtual hug. Really appreciate it. I just don’t want too much pressures, they are making me sick sometimes.
ColourfulWorld » Why cannot hug? Guys from all boys school don’t hug? Haha.. Thanks so much for the support and words.
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